Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Before and After

Well... We have come to the realization that our daughter is in fact growing up, despite our greatest efforts to keep her small for eternity! Every day of the past three months I think two thoughts:
1. I can't believe you are so big!
2. I can't believe you are so small!

Here is a little tour of how our lives were BEFORE a baby and AFTER a baby (only in regards to the baby of course... there have been many more changes then the ones I'm about to mention but Scott is headed to work and my time is limited!)

BEFORE the baby was born we had her crib built (No small accomplishment...)



NOW her crib is built and slept in every night! Plus we hung the mobile because who KNEW it was so difficult to entertain a baby long enough for a 45 sec. shower... (Also...notice the quilt my step-mom made. The fabric is on the wall as it became our bedroom theme... Also note the curtains made by my mom... it was a family affair!)



BEFORE we had a baby the dresser looked like this... Clean and well kept with a few of mom's things laying around...



AFTER the baby the dresser looks like this! Complete with changing table, a shelf for the 1 million diapers, a diaper pail that eliminates odors... and photos hung of everyone who has come to meet our little sweet pea! Also notice the magnificent alphabet that Scott hung (notice the step stool...).



Before we had a baby our lives were like this. Well put together, organized, and happy.



AFTER we had the baby we realized that our lives were just not as full as they could be, and the little details and day to day experiences have enriched our lives beyond anything we could have imagined! (Notice the additions to the wall, the play set on the floor, the cradle full of books, the laundry basket...etc. Quite a lot is needed for babies...WHO KNEW!?)



BEFORE our baby was born her coming home outfit looked like this.



THEN we had a newborn and the outfit looked like this...





NOW we have a three month old and the outfit looks like this!



My Growing Girl

Dear Audrey,

It’s been 3 months since my last letter and you are already growing like a weed! The other day I had a friend over and you were in my arms. As we were talking I said “When Audrey was a baby…” because even though you are already three months old I feel as if you are my big girl!

Everyone in your family absolutely adores you. Your grandma Alice, grandpa Don, Grandpa Bob, uncle Luke, great-grandma Rosebrough, great-grandpa Rosebrough, great-uncle Bob, great-aunt Brenda, grandpa Perry, grandma Anne, great-aunt Stacy, great-uncle Pat, Aunt Anne, cousin Chase, cousin Alex, uncle David and first-cousins-once-removed Ian, Hugh, Amy, Megan, and Mark have all come to Greeley or Colorado Springs to meet you. Uncle Brian Ward is in France and is coming to meet you this summer and uncle Brian Walker is coming in May! Your grandma Sharon will be here in a few weeks to take care of you while I’m back at work. Every time a family member came they gushed over how beautiful and sweet you are. Your dad and I have a very hard time letting them have a turn to hold you because we love being around you so much. Your grandma Alice makes it very clear that it is HER TURN FIRST every time she comes to visit (and she’s already been up 3 times and we’ve gone to see her 3 times too!)

Even though you are a big three-month-old girl you are still in your newborn clothes. At your two month appointment you weighed a whopping 8 pounds 6 ounces! We just switched you out of newborn diapers into size 1’s. The other day we were visiting a little two-week-old baby and I couldn’t help but notice that she was already in size 1 diapers and weighed 8 pounds 3 ounces… You are so petite, just like your parents. We have had to put two newborn pieces of clothing away (a giraffe shirt and some polka dot jammies) and I get a little sad knowing you’re getting to be a big girl!

You have started doing so many things in the past couple of weeks! Right now your favorite thing is laying on your changing table. You smile and coo and talk to a pink butterfly that is hanging on your wall. Last week I put together your mobile and you like to lay underneath it and watch the shapes spin overhead. When we lay you on your stomach you push with your feet, trying desperately to roll yourself over so you can get in on all the action. When we help you roll over you smile at us and talk about everything that is going on in your little world. You just love staring at peoples’ faces. You are also very enthralled by lamps. We have had many discussions together in the rocking chair about the beige lamp to our right.

Today we were at grandma Ali’s and grandpa Bob’s and you had your first photo shoot. You were absolutely adorable! I don’t know how your dad and I are going to ever choose which photos to buy. If we had all the money in the world we would buy every single one in poster size. We don’t get to see the pictures for a month and your dad and I have already mentioned how anxious we are to see them. We bought the most adorable hat online and you found one of the strings and managed to put it in your mouth! We think that’s brilliant!

Your grandma had the Colorado Springs family over for dinner since you were in town and your great-grandpa Rosebrough was there. He is sick with Alzheimer’s so he says the funniest things to you! Tonight I was holding you and he said “How old is that thing?” and “Is that a boy or a girl?” (which who can blame him… you have no hair…). Great-grandma Rosebrough was the first to tell him about you and he thought for a minute and said “I think you’d better take care of that…” He may not understand who you are in our family but he can tell you are very special to him. Your great-grandma Rosebrough got down on the floor next to your blanket tonight and just smiled and talked to you. That is so special because she has to use a walker to get around. She just loves you to pieces and never misses an opportunity to hold you and look at you.

Your grandma Alice is making your Easter dress (Easter is in two weeks) and it’s going to be pink and frilly. We love to dress you in pink and take your picture. We have already posted hundreds of your photo online for everyone we know to enjoy. I have your first Easter basket all ready to go, with a stuffed bunny, a bunny sippy cup, and some socks. I have a feeling I will not be the only one preparing an Easter basket for you this year though…

Well, that is all for now little one. I’m typing this in the car on the way home from Grandma’s and you’re starting to wake up in the back seat. You probably want your pacifier and a little face rubbin’.

We love you!

Mom and Dad (And Tober)

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Sleep Deprivation

You can tell when a family has a new baby because they never post anything on their blog...

We are coming out of one of the most exciting and exhausting experiences of our lives! If having a newborn weren't enough the UNC Bears have gone on a terrific run and are headed to the National Tournament. We await our destiny this Sunday, when the place and opponent are announced.

Scott has been so busy I tease that basketball has made me a single parent. Yesterday, the day of the Big Sky Championship was Scott's birthday, and we all know what happened the day before MY birthday, so we are both hoping for less eventful ways to ring in our 30's next year... :)

Scott has worked so hard he has managed a whopping 12 total hours of sleep this week. His exhaustion caught up to him this afternoon. We had one of my friends from work over and Audrey was fussy because she had a wet diaper. Scott volunteered to change her (he is a diaper CHAMPION by the way) and then handed her off to me when he was finished in a cute dress, a onsie and a pair of tights (the outfit is important because I need for you to visualize the layers. Many layers between my little girl and my outfit). As I was visiting with my friend I realized that I was all of a sudden wet...VERY wet. I turned to Scott and asked

"How in the world did you attach this diaper? It REALLY leaked"

His face turned white. His response:

"I forgot to put a diaper on her..."

A new outfit for Audrey and a new outfit for me and a nap for Scott later all is well with the world :) No one is covered in pee for now...

There is always a chance tomorrow :)

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Cue Music: "You're havin' my baby...what a wonderful way of sayin' how much you love me"

WE DID IT! We successfully created, carried, and delivered a living human being! And you may call me biased, but I think she's pretty amazing, and probably the cutest baby that has ever been born...

One day you look like this:


The next day you have this:

It all started one Wednesday morning. We had our regularly scheduled OB appointment where we went in and heard the baby's heartbeat, measured my stomach, and heard the regular weekly phrases:

"You're urine is clear, blood pressure good, any questions?"

At this point I asked if my doctor would check my cervix, since she had the week before and we were 1 centimeter dialated and 50% effaced. After a quick check she said I was 2 cent. dialated and still around 50% effaced. She showed no indication that little Audrey was on her way, and claimed that although she thought she weighed around 5.5 pounds by the time her due date rolled around she would weigh a good 6-7 pounds.

Scott and I left the doctor's appointment and I went right to school. My principal was covering my class while I was at the doctor and got everyone on staff excited, thinking she was on her way. Their faces fell as I walked in the building, and they realized I was at a routine doctor's appointment.

That day I was really uncomfortable, and had some minor cramps, but nothing serious. I called Anne because I was worried something was wrong, but she assured me everything was normal, and a sign that my cervix had been bothered by the doctor. There were no warning signs that we were headed into labor, in fact, I sent an email asking Scott to go to the grocery store on his way home so I could put my feet up. I was just so exhausted!

That night we watched our regular run of Wednesday night television. We laughed at Modern Family and sat on the couch resting up for the rest of the week. Around 10:30 I went into the basement to fold some laundry in the dryer, I just wasn't quite ready to go to bed. Because of my huge belly I had to sit in a chair to get the laundry finished. As I was reaching in the dryer for some blue pajama pants I felt a rush of water. I yelled up the stairs to Scott that I thought my water had broken and he came rushing down. There wasn't a lot of water yet, so we just looked at each other wondering what to do. Either way, water breaking or not, something wasn't right so we decided to call the doctor. As I stood up it was a little more clear that my water had in fact broken, and we leaped into action!





* A side note: Many people have said that when your water breaks it is not like in the movies. For us...it was!
*Another side note: Once your water breaks you leak LOTS of water consistently for a longer period of time than I would like to remember. Doctors and books do not prepare you for what to do while water continuously flows from your body. It's pretty fabulous. I felt like I needed a kiddy pool underneath me as I packed and got to the hospital.

The doctor on call said that yes, we indeed need to head into the hospital. After some last minute packing we left our anxiety ridden dog in his kennel and headed to Loveland.

Checking the list more than twice...

When we got to the hospital they checked us into triage and told us to put our bag down, we would be there a while. They did the customary checks "Urine is clear, blood pressure good, any questions?" As I got onto the table to have the nurse check to make sure I was leaking water and not some other fluid we got another rush and they decided that it was not necessary to walk around the floor, that yes, I was indeed in labor.

They got us checked into our room around 2:30 a.m. Scott and I were amazed how much time had passed. By this time we had contacted all of our parents and were thinking our little girl would arrive in 8 - 9 hours. Around 4:30 a.m. the nurse came in and started the Pitocin because even though my water had broken my contractions were not regular, strong, or anything to speak of.

Scott and I were able to sleep a little bit until the next morning when I asked if I could get up and walk around. The hospital had these gadgets that check my heart rate and the babie's heart rate, and they were able to set me up with a portable set. It was pretty fabulous to go from being wired to 3 different machines to being wired to only 1. Scott and I walked the hallways for almost 45 min. until my contractions were really strong and regular. We headed back to the room where I had my EPIDURAL!

*Side note: Epidurals are wonderful. It is difficult to be still during contractions and it's painful to remove the back-sized band aid they put on your back the next day, but the 15 min. of pain is well worth it.

We were watching the contraction gadget spike and rise and were sure little girl was on her way! Around noon the nurse came in to check my cervix and ... SURPRISE! I was still only 2 cent. dialated. At this point my water had been broken over 12 hours and we were told that if things didn't get movin' then we were on the fast track to a c-section. They decided to come in and do a final check around dinner, and we waited anxiously as I willed my cervix to dialate.

Around 4:30 the nurse came in and commented that things were under way and we were most definitely going to get to have the baby without a c-section, but that we were still 4-5 hours away. The doctor came in around 6:00, did a quick check, and then said "Well! I'm going to head to the bathroom then let's have this baby!"

Nothing can prepare you for this moment. Here we had been sitting in the hospital for hours on end waiting for these words to be spoken and once they were it was like a shock: No turning back now: She's coming.

We were in love with our OB delivery doctor. She was wonderful. As maddening as it may be for you to read this, we had a great time having our baby. That's not to say it's wasn't painful and extremely exhausting and difficult but our little girl was brought into this world surrounded by laughter, jokes, and smiling faces. We had our doctor in stitches.

My mom was on my left and Scott was on my right. In between pushes we were cracking jokes, adding commentary, and teaching our OB how to give awesome high-fives. Anyone who knows me knows that when times get stressful or difficult I turn to humor, and this was no different. Instead of yelling out and scaring the entire floor we were cracking jokes and looking for the bright side of this hellacious process called labor.
*Dr. Loken (OB) and Shelly (nurse)


Little girl arrived in this world at 6:53 on Janurary 13th. It was amazing. They put her right on my chest but because she was 3 weeks early they quickly rushed her to the nursery where they did a more thorough check. Scott was hesitant to leave my side but with some provoking from my mom and the nurses he grabbed the camera and followed the crew to the nursery. 100 pictures later Audrey was brought back and I got to officially introduce myself to her as her mother.

Before I went into labor I had all of these worries: Will it be awkward to have my mom in my room? What if I make a terrible patient? What if something goes wrong during the delivery? What if Scott passes out?

*Final Side Note: Scott did not pass out during delivery. He watched the whole thing like a champ and had this look of amazement on his fact that made labor so much easier. Seeing his face and hearing his encouragement was something I hope I never forget. But two days later, when we had to get one TINY drop of blood drawn from Audrey's foot, Scott was light-headed and needed some juice and a snack before he could regain the color in his face and walk without shaking down the hallway...

None of these things mattered in the heat of the moment. It was awesome. Scott did great, it was wonderful having my mom there, the doctors and nurses make you feel like you can do no wrong, and in the end you are holding a human being that started out as two cells joining on a random Tuesday morning.

Unbelievable.

And now, all I can say is, I'm in love.







Audrey Lynn Ward
Born January 13th, 2011 at 6:53 p.m. (just in time to avoid mooching on her mother's birthday)
Weight: 5 pounds 11 ounces
Length: 18 inches

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Happy late holidays! We have LOVED getting everyone's Christmas card in the mail. Do not feel slighted...we are saving our Christmas card mailing for a special February occasion...

A lot has been happening in the Ward-Ward household, and most of it has to do with the impending birth of our daughter. As of today, Wed., Dec. 29th, Audrey is 35 internal weeks old. Scott and I have always used Christmas as an impending date signaling the coming of our daughter's birth, and now....Christmas has come and gone, which means it was time to get busy! My mom came up today and helped get some things on the walls and get a mattress ready for her crib. We had a lot of fun getting everything organized, clean, and ready. Here is a photo tour of our last couple of weeks...

Here I am, 2 weeks ago, when I still had a belly button. Kind of puts my summertime bump to shame!

Scott and I took a pic in my mom's backyard on Christmas Eve.
We put Luke in charge of photography, and he was very patient with his pregnant sister :)

On Christmas Eve the family went to church. We couldn't help but marvel at the thought that this was our last year without a daughter to spoil over the holidays. Scott kept reminding me that next year I won't be the one receiving the most packages, but little does he know I will always be the princess...It's my birthright!

When we got back from town it was time to build a crib! Scott and David worked really hard to get everything assembled. Although there were only 7 steps it took many arms to keep everything steady.

Tober supervised the construction by managing the tools. He was always right in the middle of the action, although he was never what you might call alert....


In all of our years of projects this one was by FAR our greatest success! There were very few cross words exchanged and very few pieces had to be taken apart and reassembled. You can tell by our smiling faces we were happy to be almost finished, but it's a HUGE step that we are genuinely smiling!

The finished product! Notice the blanket hanging over the edge. Anne is making me a quilt for her crib, but I couldn't help and show off my handy work. A week ago my mom came up for a few nights (to help with my holiday party at school) and she taught me how to make this baby blanket. I still have mine from when I was born, and hope that Audrey likes the one I've made for her. Of course, she will probably choose some soft blanket from a complete stranger to love forever, but a mother can dream!

My mom came up another day over the Christmas break to help me put some finishing touches on the nursery. We still have molding to attach and an alphabet to hang, but for the most part what you see is what she gets!





I'm so lucky to have so many family members that have contributed to our daughter's room. Even though we aren't close enough for everyone to physically help just having people call and check on how things are going, having people make and send things from afar, and having everyone so excited to meet our daughter feels like a total blessing. I can't put it into words how lucky I feel to have a family that is so excited to meet our daughter. We've received so many cards, gifts, phone calls, emails, and facebook posts it's amazing. I only hope I can return generosity to everyone, because it has been truly the most amazing experience. It's hard to believe in 5 short weeks all of this planning and excitement will open a door to a new chapter of the rest of our lives! (How cheese ball can I be?? Trust me... this only scratches the surface for how I feel!)

Well, it's time for a snack, and then some t.v. time. I'm pretty worthless around 5:00 these days, but I'm enjoying my couch time while I can. My days of watching evening t.v. are limited!

Monday, December 6, 2010

Even the Refs are Nervous

On Saturday the UNC Bears had a double header. That means 6 hours in a gym. NOT my favorite Saturday activity, but with Scott traveling so much, and being the devoted wife that I am, I dragged my pregnant self into the gym for some ballin'.

Little Audrey must have just popped out over night. The comments I receive have taken a 180 degree turn. No longer do I hear "You don't even LOOK like you're pregnant" or "Your SO tiny!" or "Are you sure you're due in February?"

Now I heard "Wow! You popped over night!" or "When IS your baby due?" or "FINALLY! You're looking large like I was when I was pregnant"

Even the referees are getting nervous. As I was sitting on press row shaking the hands of the officials, the head official leaned over the table and commented "You're not due tonight are you?"

In two days Audrey will be 32 weeks old. That means she could be born and her skin would not be transparent, and she most likely wouldn't need any machines to help her survive. What an amazing feat this little girl has accomplished already!

Now that we're getting to the end I find myself constantly checking to make sure she's okay by poking her little butt and feet. I feel like she likes to play when she kicks back but in reality she's probably already thinking "Darnit mom...STOP it!"

The other night I woke up to Scott poking my stomach, and when I asked what he was doing he said "I'm playing with her. You usually don't wake up... :)

I'm so excited to meet my daughter it's not even funny. I'm starting to have some hesitation about the whole "giving birth" process, but I remind myself often that if the girls on 16 and Pregnant can do it, then so can I!

Tomorrow, we intend to register. I find that I want EVERYTHING to be pink, which could prove problematic if SHE is actually a HE. I've started saving receipts...just in case :)

Monday, November 15, 2010

Library Books... (not a pregnancy related post!)

Today, one of my students brought up a book from our library that he had checked out. The following is our conversation.

S: Mrs. Ward, I think there is a picture in this book that is inappropriate for school.
Me: Well, let me have a look. Which picture?
S: This picture, right here. See how it has a poster? I don't think the girl on that poster is dressed appropriately.
Book: A picture of Times Square in New York. On one of the ads is what looks like a Rockette in a furry two piece bikini, definitely not appropriate for a second grade book, but only about 1 cent. tall. This kid had to be lookin'.
Me: Yes, I can see what you're talking about, but I don't think this picture is what you think it is. She's going to be in a show. This is her costume.
S: Oh. Okay. But don't you think it's inappropriate for a bird book?

Me: Turn the book over. The title of the book....Great American Birds.

Apparently, birds live in the Northeast, and the best way to describe New York is with a picture of a half dressed woman in Times Square :)